Upcoming week of lung tests at MDACC

My breathing has shown notable improvement. Perhaps around 25% better, by a few self-test-at-home measures. I am cautiously optimistic about what that means. Is the left lung functioning again? Maybe somewhat? We will find out soon.

I have a big week coming at MD Anderson. With the help of a physician's assistant there, I have scheduled a slew of tests and consultations. I will meet with a fatigue clinic doctor, my oncologist, a phase-one clinic chemotherapy doctor, and a pulmonologist. I'll have x-rays, CT scans and lung function tests. Depending upon the direction of treatment - for either the cancer and/or the lung problems - I may also see a pulmonary surgeon and have a bronchoscopy and stent procedure.

There are so many directions this could go. I am learning (or possibly resorting) to simply take one more step forward, pursue whatever due diligence possible, pray, and not get caught up in too many "if"'s. It's not a courage thing, or some big spiritual thing. Frankly, it's just too mentally exhausting for me right now to speculate. In the sermon on the mount, Jesus said some remarkably pragmatic words, "...tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." I'm enjoying taking that path right now.

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My cousin and her family are heavy on my heart. Her husband was in a near-fatal car accident and may be severely paralyzed. When suffering rears its ugly face, sometimes it is so painfully swift and sometimes so painfully slow. May the Lord have mercy on us all as we cry out heavenward in our frail humanity.

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For those who follow twitter, I am planning on tweeting my way through the week at MDACC. Twitter may be a fitting technology for this sort of thing, so I'm going to give her a spin.